A year ago I lived in Canada. And the year before that I lived in New Zealand. Five years ago I lived in Australia. Six years ago I was getting ready to leave Germany.
There have been many moments during those past six years, when I stopped and thought: “What am I doing here?” “How did I get here?” “Seriously, I’m really here?”
And I look around and see my life.
Truly see my life and I’m astonished by it. Despite myself, despite the fact that I am the one living it. I am there all the time, but I’m not always paying attention. None of us are always paying attention, which is a shame, but also quite hard to achieve.
Today I paid attention again.
I went into London today to see a movie that I’ve been wanting to see for at least two years, when I first saw “Making of” clips of it during production on YouTube. It was worth the wait. One of my favourite actresses in the world is in it. Sheetal Sheth. And let me confess that, yes, I have a huge crush on her. She’s stunning and talented and so much more.
The movie is called Three Veils and it crushed me. Stunning performances by all, full of incredible insights into a culture so far removed from my own. Deeply human and true, which is a rare achievement for any movie.
On the way home a million and one thoughts and ideas struck me all at once and I’ve been trying to hold onto them all until I would get a chance to write them down. This is what inspired performances do to me. They inspire me.
So here I am writing down a few of the things that struck me, keeping half of my mind occupied with holding on to the rest. I can’t write it all down at once and some things are not meant to be written here.
Yesterday I was asked, what I want to write about. Sometimes I struggle to explain, to give away what I am not ready to give away.
But at the end of the day there is only one answer to that question: