Stepping outside

I haven’t written at all in the days that I have been at home. I wanted to. I tried to. Even my journal entry turned into rubbish.

I’ve been wondering why.

Everything is distraction. I have no writing space. No time, either. I’m lacking everything I need in order to write. My head is full of everything that I can’t get out.

I go to sleep and dream. I keep dreaming until I wake up.

I want to write and I’m not getting anywhere.

I’ve stepped out of my life. I’m home, where I don’t belong, not really. Not anymore. I’m on vacation, if you like, completely and utterly and that doesn’t make me very happy.

I don’t want to be on vacation. It’s nice to be on a break, but I don’t want to stop writing.

Instead I’m drawing, or trying to. A little bit obsessively actually. I need to do something.

This is the last blog of 2013. It was a strange year, not at all bad, though. I’ve had a lot of new experiences, many that I didn’t expect or even imagined a year ago. I had no expectations for 2013, which is, I suppose, not that bad.

I have no expectations for 2014, but I do have plans. Let’s see what happens with all of that.

It will be a year of writing, though, above all I will write. And then travel a little.

I’ll step back inside soon.


About 2clouds

I am many things, most of them I am 100%, some of them 150%, none of them just half. I write, I read, I dream, I travel. I question. And I'm always looking for answers. No dream is impossible.
This entry was posted in Uncategorized and tagged , , , , . Bookmark the permalink.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.