Doubt and the feeling of “not being good enough” is a constant in every artists life. Anyone, who creates anything, does anything creative at all, knows this feeling.
The standards I measure myself against are not applied by anyone else but me. Nobody will ever be as critical as I am. You don’t know what I wish to create, how could you know how well I’ve done?
So, who do I turn to when I am in doubt?
Those who’ve been through it themselves.
It may not actually dispel the the doubt, but it helps to know that others have been through it, are going through it and will always go through it.
I have a tendency to overthink everything when I am in doubt. Every detail gets turned over and scrutinized multiple times. I don’t know that that is a healthy approach, but I don’t have another. I could stop doing anything instead, which is no option.
The only way forward is through. Just as long as I have no expectation of where I might end up, I will be okay.
And, as always, writing helps me to think and put things in perspective. Even when it is such a general approach like this.
Whenever I say that I’ll be pulling away from this blog a little more so I can concentrate on other writing, I find myself posting even more. This time, I think, I mean it.
I’ll post once a week or whenever I feel a pressing need to write about something in particular. My other blog has been severely neglected and I need to rectify that. And then there are all those stories I need to work on and my website.
Only the work I do will get me through and onto the other side of those nagging doubts.
There’s no alternative.