The Truth

I want to find that story worth telling. I know it’s there. It’s not as buried as I sometimes feel it is. One of the reasons I make myself write every day, not just because I need to get in the habit of writing as much as possible, but because I know that sooner or later I will stumble across something and it will be real.

I mean, what I am writing right now, or keeping my journal, is not not real. These are my thoughts and feelings, sometimes deeper, other times less so. Sometimes I’m just rambling along. Sometimes I don’t know if I am even making sense. And sometimes I am just using the word sometimes once too many.

You see, I can hardly ever stop myself from joking around in some form. Make a snarky remark on the side. And not everyone will get it. I don’t want everyone to get it. But those of you who do, I consider friends. Kindred spirits, if you will.

So, what is it I am looking for? I gave that away in my header, didn’t I?? The truth, of course. A truth. Because I don’t believe in the absolute truth. Maybe it’s not even a question of believing in it, rather than the certainty that there is no such thing.

So, a truth. And you can find that in something that is real.

I have a ton of notebooks with jotted down ideas. Every now and then I go and try and collate them into one notebook to have them all at hand. When I do that I tend to surprise myself with my own insights.

I know full well what I want to write and to some degree how I want to say it. But something is still missing and that is what keeps me from committing to any one idea I’ve been having recently. It’s all a jumble.

Currently I’m juggling half a dozen ideas, but I need to boil it down to one solid one. One truth. I only need to pick one to begin with. There’s plenty of time later to find others.

I’m sure I’ve said it before, but this right there is the reason I write like I do right now, because it seems to be part of the process and sometimes something helpful will come out of it. Some people talk to themselves, I write to myself.

It helps making sense and I am one step closer to where I need to be.

I’m getting there, you betcha!

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About 2clouds

I am many things, most of them I am 100%, some of them 150%, none of them just half. I write, I read, I dream, I travel. I question. And I'm always looking for answers. No dream is impossible.
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